After Sunday's explosive Real Housewives of New Jersey season finale
and a subsequent year
of the rift between the Gorgas and the Giudices, Teresa Giudice is talking about the breakdown she had after seeing her family again at the reunion.
"I said to myself I wasn't going to get upset, but I couldn't help it," Teresa told In Touch Weekly
about her meltdown at the reunion
, which taped earlier this month. "After the taping was done, I broke down. I started crying and couldn't stop."
As far as being accused of setting her sister-in-law, Melissa Gorga, up for a scandal, Teresa continues to assert her innocence.
"I had no idea [Angelo] was going to the fashion show," Teresa wrote on her Bravo blog
. "When he showed up and came to the table, my heart was racing. I don't know anything about Melissa's true past, so I had no idea if he was a threat or not. But I was prepared to defend Melissa if he said anything. But all he did was say hi and left. I know what it's like to have your family betray you publicly. I would never wish Melissa's family secrets to come out. Your family is supposed to be your rock. I wouldn't wish this on anyone."
And after a whole season of being accused of broadcasting her family's life in the tabloids, Teresa has some choice words for the article Melissa put out in Us Weekly
where she was quick to talk trash about Teresa.
"What Melissa and the other women accused me of all season was basically running the magazines and having complete control over everything," Teresa wrote on her blog. "I know Melissa can't control what 'sources' say in the interview. All I can hold her responsible for is the actual quotes that come out of her mouth. Her lies are absolute garbage and right from her mouth."
Now Teresa is at the point where she is questioning whether the price of fame was too costly for her family.
"I know in my heart I did nothing. I feel like I'm making myself sick over this," Teresa told In Touch
. "We've never gone without speaking until we were on a reality show together. This is exactly what I didn't want. It's heartbreaking."
Here's a preview of the first part of the reunion, which airs on Sunday:Gina PusateriContributing Writer(Image and video courtesy of Bravo)