Big Brother 8
's Amber Siyavus
was one of the most controversial houseguests in the show's history. Based on the way the episodes were edited together, you'd think she was crying every moment of the day. She polarized viewers with her openness regarding her history of drug abuse and is responsible for one of the most infamous moments of the season with a derogatory comment about Eric and the Jewish people.
Amber spoke to BuddyTV and was very open and willing to share her thoughts on all the topics on viewers' minds. She talked about her daughter, her friendship with Dustin and Jameka, her faith, her history of drug abuse, and her anti-semitic remark. Below you will find the complete transcript and mp3 audio file of the interview.
Hi, this is John from Buddy TV, and we're talking to Amber, one of the contestants from this season of Big Brother. How you doing, Amber?
I'm good, how are you?
I'm doing great. Now, why did you initially agree to be on the show?
I initially agreed to be on the show because my sister is a huge fan of the show. And obviously the grand prize was $500,000, second place is $50,000. I did it for my family, I saw on TV a casting call down in Nevada, and I went down there and gave my two-minute video message and hoped for the best and being picked as a contestant.
And knowing what you know now, having been through it, would you still go back and audition if you knew what it would actually be like?
That's a really good question. I would have to say yes, I would go and do it again, just because I did it like I said for my family. It was definitely a tough experience and I learned a lot about life, people, and myself…everything, and a lot of stuff I can take appreciation from. But like I said, regardless, even though I know what I know now, as hard as it has been I'd still go back and do it again. Because again, I would do it for my family to try and win the money for them.
In that first two-minute audition, is there anything that you can tell us about what you said, or any reason you think why they chose you?
In my two-minute video message, basically I just said, “Hi, you just met one of your 13 houseguests. My name is Amber, I'm 27-years-old.” Gave a little bit of detail about myself. Why they chose me? I don't know. I'm a really outgoing person, I'm a good person. I know a lot of people may not think so, or they may not see that in me, but I really am. I think in a lot of my interviews I said, I care about people, and I want to be there for people. I'm like the type of person that worries about people, and I don't know if that had anything to do with it, considering there was gonna be so much chaos and drama in the house. I'd be the person to be able to fall back on and talk to and be there for people. I said I didn't have a strategy going into it, so maybe that was something they took as well. I'm not really sure why they picked me, but obviously they did.
Now that you've had some time outside of the house, I'm guessing you probably watched some of it, or read some stuff about what people have been saying on the Internet and how they reacted to it. What's your reaction to the people at home's reaction to what went on?
Well, I haven't got to watch anything yet. I definitely have spoken to my sister and my family has told me a lot. And I read some things, articles and whatnot, and I'm actually really shocked. I didn't realize I was so hated by America, and I didn't think I was being portrayed like I was being portrayed. I'm not gonna sit here and say I didn't cry a lot, I definitely did. I am a crier, I am a from-the-heart person. Whether people saw that side of me, I don't know. All I can say is, I was me in the house, everything I did in that house was who I was. I was shocked to find out the way I was portrayed and things people said about me. You know, a lot of it hurt me, but at the same time obviously I made some comments that hurt people. I didn't mean to offend people in any way, I'm not that type of person. It was hard, it was very difficult and very hard for me to hear all that stuff about me.
But like I said, everyone has their own opinion and freedom of speech. And I'm not upset with anything that was said about me, obviously it hurt. But like I said, everyone has their own opinion of me, so I did the best I could in the house and however people took it, I can't convince people to like me or not, all I could have done was be me, and it was hard. I was really upset and reading things, I just, all these shows in my diary rooms with me crying., crying, crying, and it's sad because I did so much more than cry in that house. I had talks with people, I had relationships with people. I was there for so many people in that house, I was outgoing, I had fun. They didn't show any of that, and it really hurts you, because I think people would have had a different view of me.
Speaking of your relationships with people in the house, obviously Dustin and Jameka I think, were your two biggest friends in the house. How are you moving forward? Are you gonna remain friends with them, are you gonna try to keep it up with them?
I will definitely 110 percent be in touch with Dustin and Jameka. I love them so much, they are two of the most amazing people I've ever met. I couldn't have asked for anybody else better to be in the house with. I found two best friends that I will be best friends with for life, and all three of us had really good relationships with each other. We all trusted each other, and we were all loyal to each other, and I'm very thankful they were in the house. Honestly, I don't know what I would've done without them. And I'm so looking forward to them meeting my family, me meeting their family, and continuing our friendships forward down the line for the rest of our lives.
And with big twist, the America's Player twist. How does that change, because you seemed to be getting along with Eric and Jessica when they were in your alliance. Then they turned, and it almost made no sense to you, and you were very angry at that. But now that you know all the rationale behind it, how does that change your reaction to Eric or Jessica?
I was upset with Eric and Jessica, obviously because they turned and we had discussed it about the group being loyal, being loyal, being loyal. And I felt like me, Dustin and Jameka were loyal, and then finding out with me going home, then Dustin going home, Eric turning on us. It really hurt me at first, but I remembered always in the back of my mind, everything that happened, remembered this is a game, and people are playing a game, and they're all here for one reason. You can't expect everything to go your way, you can't expect everyone to be loyal. I trusted a lot of people, and I shouldn't have after everything happened with Dustin's eviction and mine, that was Eric and Jessica, I had pretty much a lot of that stuff figured out. I knew when Dustin went home, if Dustin went home, that the house was gonna turn and me and Jameka were gonna be like the outcasts of the house. That's what happened, I was upset with Eric and I questioned in my head a lot of like, why, why, why?
And when we were in the sequester house, I didn't really talk about it, I didn't ask anyone anything. I kind of just left it alone, and said to myself I'll see the tapes when I see them, and made the best of it in the jury house. I don't have anything against anyone in the house. As far as Jessica and Eric go, they did what they had to do as a team to further themselves in the game. And the whole America's Player thing with Eric, he did what he had to do, he had to complete tasks and that was part of his job in the game. He had to play a game as well, I know that was probably really hard for him, to have all that going on plus try to play his own game. So I'm not mad at him, it does answer a lot of my questions, and I'm really glad to see that a lot of things I questioned about Eric was wrong because it was America voting.
Continue reading to find out Amber's views of the Donatos and her own anti-semitic comment.
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