I'm going to be honest: my Twilight obsession has waned over the last couple of months. I'm not sure why exactly but I just know I stopped reading Twilight news (because it was a lot of the same) and I had no interest in rereading the books or rewatching the movie. I assumed, as most would, that my obsession would start to rebuild steam around the release of New Moon. To my surprise, nothing has changed. I didn't even buy midnight tickets!

I know what you must be thinking right now - This is not a true Twilight fan. That's fair to assume. I can recount the amount of times I've read through the series, the number of times I've watched the movie, or even tell you that my New Moon trailer analysis was listed as one of the best by Twilight Lexicon. But does all that really matter? Does that still make me a member of the group as of today?

So when I received a press screening invite for tonight, I figured it wouldn't be that big of a deal. I was so wrong.

I've spent my entire week reading Twilight news, watching interviews and looking through old articles I might've missed. With every new minute spent, I get a minute closer to seeing New Moon and I get a little more nervous. So nervous, in fact, I'm actually scared to see the movie. Twilight was so wonderful upon first viewing, I don't think any sequel could compare to my thoughts on and feelings about the original film of the series.

New Moon, as a book, is a difficult read. Bella goes through so many tough emotions and she pulls the reader through them with her. Conveying those difficult emotions, if done right, will make me bawl my eyes out. Underdone, the movie will be insignificant. Overdone, I will scoff as much as I scoff at soap operas. Hearing that New Moon is more action packed might be appealing to a wider demographic but it doesn't give me faith that it'll reach the core sentiments of Stephenie Meyer's story.

So maybe I lost that loving feeling (for Twilight) in order to protect myself. Maybe I thought there is no way New Moon could live up to my very high expectations. Perhaps my fear stems from the fact that if this movie fails, it could signify the beginning of my permanent disillusionment with the Twilight franchise as a whole.

I sincerely hope not.

What do you guys think? Are you nervous? Am I the only one whose Twilight obsession waned over the last year?



-Kim Wetter, BuddyTV Staff Columnist
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